Finally getting this off my chest felt like 15lbs had been lifted off my shoulders, & I hadn't even realised it was bothering me that much. Editing this through has made me realise how much worse it could've been, and that has *seriously* hardened my shell - my absolute mission for this year is to STOP with the polite, pushover nature I've inherited from my mother, to speak up as SOON as someone makes me even slightly uncomfortable, & never, never to ignore my instincts again - blunt and assertive is the way forward, & that starts with telling this story, *my* story, instead of bottling it up to protect a Nice Guy creeper who stole the best freakin' night of my year with his manipulative financial guilt tripping. I was so lucky this didn't turn into anything worse, & it's served as a HUGE wake up call that this passivity my childhood's given me regarding creepy men & ignoring red flags - because creepy comments were an everyday fact of my LIFE for so long - is going to lead me somewhere awful if I don't learn to speak up & be stronger willed in future. I wrote a poem the morning after this happened, it's been password protected up until now, but at this point I am SO done with sugar-coating & silence in regards to this man, so if you want to read it, it's here: - I was going to read it aloud for Patreon, but my microphone cable's just died, so that'll have to wait 'til the replacement comes. Apologies to the Patreon peeps for not making this video early access - I really just want to get it out there and said in one fell swoop.
And finally, if you are the man in question, I do apologise for how anxiety-provoking it is being talked about negatively online, but I gave you four months to get it together & move on before coming out with this - if you're STILL hanging around my content, knowing how I feel about you, I cannot, and WILL not, be held responsible for your feelings; you got ALL the good out of that weekend, & I got nothing but an escort experience hell I should've been paid for - consider this me recouping a *fraction* of those losses - Halloween 2019 is a night I will never, ever get back, and restraining my ABSOLUTE & continuing fury about that to tiptoe around your feelings in that final email was SO much more than you deserve - I strongly suggest you p1ss rapidly off in the direction of a therapist & a sobriety app. Buhbye.
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Dorian B
Initial Business Centre
Wilson Business Park
Manchester
M40 8WN
UK
--if sending anything to PO Box, please mark as 'gift' so I'm not hit with customs charges! I appreciate everyone who takes the time, but customs charges are super hard to sort out via a PO Box and can sometimes result in the item being returned to sender before I get it sorted :-/ so yeah, mark as gift and all should go smoothly!—
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